this blog post isn’t really related to feminism or some heavy topic we’ve tackled in the course so far, it’s just my quick reflection over writing the first essay. writing the paper was really not too bad. selecting a passage of text was not difficult. doing the literary analysis was not difficult. citing and formatting the paper was not difficult. by far the most difficult part for me was actually just starting to write the paper.
i find that i will do pretty much anything i can to procrastinate. just today alone i’ve done all of my laundry, cleaned my whole apartment, mindlessly surfed the internet, (hell, this blog itself is even another way for me to procrastinate) all in an attempt to put off writing my revisions. this makes me wonder: why do i procrastinate?
honestly, i really have no idea why i procrastinate so much. maybe it’s laziness? maybe it’s a lack of motivation? maybe it’s just a bad habit? maybe there’s some kind of bitter-sweetness to it? maybe somehow i secretly really enjoy placing myself under the pressure to get it done because it absolutely forces me to? i’m really not sure why i continue to do it. it’s not very logical and forcing myself to write at the absolute last minute is always so stressful. i try to tell myself that next time i won’t procrastinate and i’ll get my paper done ahead of time, but that just never seems to happen. i should probably stopped rambling on this blog post and go finish my revisions buuuuuut netflix is just screaming “BINGE WATCH ME.”